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[Oct. 6th, 2007|02:55 pm] |
hi everyone. i haven't blogged very much but I have to tell you all who care that I got drunk last night. Woah. Weird. Who would have thought? I have to work in an hour. Oh, joel and I are starting a video blog called "Above Hun!" it's on youtube. Search: AboveHun
yeah, i'm on it. I impersonate a tauntaun. For those of you who don't know what that is...it's an animal, in starwars, that luke skywalker and han solo ride on the ice planet hoth. It's a pretty entertaining. |
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| A friendship... |
[Jul. 29th, 2007|02:38 pm] |
Life has taken a big turn. I'm not sure if it's for the worse or not. I can say that I'm not taking this change all too well right now.
I was deceived by someone I considered a best friend for 6+ years. I was trying to save the friendship between mary, me, him, and his girlfriend. His girlfriend, mary's friend, wanted mary to co-sign for a loan for her school. I thought it could potentially destroy our friendships so I brought my concerns to him because I felt more comfortable talking to him than his girlfriend and he took it as a personal attack. I worded a few things wrong and he took it as though I didn't trust him. Trust was a slight issue but it was mainly me being cautious and it didn't seem like Mary was going to speak up and I was trying to look out for her as well. So, he decides to stop talking to me. I give him his space. I think he was acting like a child and blowing things out of proportion but I still gave him his space. He was dealing with some personal problems that needed his attention first. I talked to his girlfriend and we had a very mature conversation about the whole matter and life went on. After awhile him and I started talking a little bit here and there. We would talk about hanging out and it would never happen. He would never contact me back or I would forget to call him. So we never ended up hanging out.
Well, when mary and I broke up she was hanging out with him and his girlfriend. He tells her this: "I'm glad you two broke up because you're the last string binding him and I together so now I don't ever have to talk to him again."
What is that shit? Who says that? I've been told about how they're sick of me and my poor decisions I've made in life. Yeah, I've fucked up...a lot. I've faced those facts. It fucking sucks, I know. That is in NO WAY a decent reason to write off someone you considered a best friend for that long. He's made plenty of stupid mistakes but I still stood behind him because I trusted he knew what he was doing. Fuck, it's just asinine to think of the shit that's he's done and because I've made poor life decisions and my attitude hasn't always been the best he decides to betray our friendship and not even tell me what he thinks straight up. This is a guy who I respected and felt I could always get honesty from and what the fuck does he pull? Some chicken shit act where he doesn't even have the decency to tell me to my face that he doesn't want to be my friend. I had serious misconceptions about his personality. It really does hurt because I loved this guy. He was one of my best friends ever and I was there for me and I wanted so hard to be there for him. I tried whenever I could to be a good friend to him. I gave him my love, my trust, and my friendship. None of that must have been worth much.
It's a joke how he felt betrayed because of what I said and he does this. I thought better of him. It's a really big shock to think you knew someone really well for 6+ years and they do something like this to you. I outright apologized to him about what I mis-worded in that conversation, right after. I did the right thing. Must have not been good enough.
I don't always say the right things. I don't always do the right things. I haven't always learned from my mistakes. Does this mean I should be condemned for some mistakes I've made? Isn't friendship supposed to be about enduring through these things? Aren't things like this supposed to strengthen a friendship? I suppose the friendship is only as strong as the people holding on to it... |
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[Jul. 18th, 2007|02:04 am] |
i fucking hate people. fucking hate them. god fucking damnit. So i'm part of this livejournal community and someone thought it would be fucking cute to make their livejournal icon a fucking spoiler for the new harry potter book...and it's flashing green and shit so it pretty much demands attention....
i want to beat the shit out of that bitch. |
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[Jul. 8th, 2007|12:03 am] |
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patience. trust. faith. strength. commitment. honesty. integrity. |
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[Jul. 6th, 2007|07:33 pm] |
so im typing this up on a computer in the mall while i'm on break. Life has been quite the obstacle course as of late. Mary and I broke up. That was a complete mess. I'm not going to get into details because there's just too much to be said.
There's a girl in chicago that I like. Her and I spent the last couple of days together. It was an amazing time. I've got a lot to learn about her and vice versa. I'm going to do this right. I Have to. It's worth it |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2007|01:33 pm] |
so the world turns again. relationship decisions are very hard.
life isn't fair. |
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[Jan. 20th, 2007|11:01 pm] |
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im sorry. |
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[Jan. 12th, 2007|02:36 am] |
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I'm Andrew. You know that. I'm not anyone else. I spill blood like I'm supposed to because that's how my body knows how to do it. I won't do it any other way. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2005|02:42 pm] |
Welcome to my photo journal.
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comment to get added, maybe. |
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